One evening last week I was on a walk with Kai. It was dusk. It was fairly quiet. The jingle of her collar. The crickets chirping. The “perfect-amount-of-cool” breeze blowing through the tree branches. She stopped pulling on the leash and just stood there sniffing the air. So I did too. Let’s ignore the fact that she probably caught whiff of someones garbage can from down the street, and focus on the fact that both of us were just standing there, being fully present. I live for moments like those.
Piled onto the big leather L-shaped sectional at my parents’ ranch. Surrounded by siblings and dogs and laughter.
You know? Those moments where you aren’t distracted. You’re calm. You’re aware. You breath deeper and grin bigger and your mind isn’t thinking about anything else but the wonder of everything that is happening in that moment. It’s like everything was fuzzy before and then all of a sudden its crystal clear. You know the meaning of life. You realize the insignificance of the rat race in the grand scheme of eternity. I see beauty in everything in those moments.
Every time I’ve been on horseback without any particular direction to go.
Have you seen the movie
Limitless? It’s like that, only without drugs.
When I experience a moment like that I wonder how I didn’t notice all those little details before. How do those same details I’m in awe over right now, get so easily discarded when my brain is busy and my heart isn’t looking? It is odd to think that the beauty of the world continues on as i remain caught up in my life’s most meaningless tasks. It seems like a waste of a cricket chirp, a breeze, a sunrise, a smile. Makes me hope that someone takes notice of these things while I’m in a fog of whatever “urgent” thing I’m currently obsessing over.
Joe’s side of the family, happily crammed into his mom’s apartment, surrounded by food, yelling at LOST for leaving us hanging.
Life speeds by at a frightening pace but I take solace in the fact that at these certain moments, the important ones, I can slow it all down by being fully present and awake. At the very least, I’ll do that.
Laying on the couch together in the dark in our first apartment listening to a Florida downpour and Joe’s heartbeat.
We’re a fast paced generation. But before everyone blames cell phones and facebook for that, I’ll admit that for me, its a problem I had long before I ever owned a cell phone. Sometimes I let anxiety take over and it’s like waking up from a coma when I finally shake the feeling. What did I miss? What year is it? I want to be awake all the time.
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You’re so right! We’ve got to slow down and be present in the moment.
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